Courage

 There is a kind of courage that is not hormonal. Innate courage, like jumping from a height, like taking the lead in clearing the enemy's trench, like standing up and speaking in a crowd where everyone is supposed to be listeners, are largely related to hormones, and some people's bodies have a better capacity for them than others.

But there is another type of courage that is related to the way of looking at life and it should be called the courage of being.

One of my friends who was trying to teach me meditation, said that the ideal state of mastery is that even if you are buried alive in a coffin, you die peacefully, not like a wretched person;I told her that you should say it like this: "You are not your own owner." You have given your body to a series of pre-defined reactions. The purpose of owning yourself is not to rest in peace while being buried alive. The goal is that your body is left to you, and if it is, one of the signs is that it is calm even when it is being buried alive.I didn't continue my speech in that time because it needed an explanation, but it's continuation is that you can't own yourself, if you don't look at yourself as the owner of totality of your life. We are trained to see ourselves as a specialized tool. If we see ourselves as an off-road car, we think we are ready to hit rough surfaces and accept that we will lose speed to all other cars.

And if we see ourselves in a race car, we think we're ready to overtake everyone, and accept that we'll get stuck in shallower pits.

Someone who says "I lose my mind when I'm alone too much" is describing the type of car he envisions of himself. And this means that we see life as a big complex, only a small part of which belongs to us.Some people understand this not from higher perception, but from random events. Like rock climbers who were once not into it at all, but got into it at the invitation of a friend and never came out. These rock climbers are in pure physical misery when they are up there.

The skin of their hands and heels is scratched as if they fell off a motorcycle. In some situations, their muscles contract in such a way that it may cause pain similar to the pain of kidney stones. And sometimes they cry out of exhaustion. But understanding that misery is also a part of being. The part where their toe slips but they don't fall off is related to their hormonal courage, but the part where their toe slips many times, but the next week they come again at the feet of another rock.It is related to the fact that their field of life has expanded. If you tell those people to stop here and continue with their previous life from now on, they will feel like they have been sentenced to life imprisonment. Because it is hard for someone whose life scope has expanded to return to a smaller slice of life.In the same way, a person who was in a good mood one day, and was depressed the next day, has lived more of his life than someone who has never been depressed. In the same way, regardless of whether loneliness is defined as a misery or not, one should not be wary from it because their share of life should be increased. Being brave means not only accepting that all these situations are a part of life, but wanting them all.The Courage of being means "Now that I exist, I embrace every way of being". And it is certain that someone who is so brave will be the owner of themselves, and they will be the owner of their place, and they will be the owner of time.For someone who has such a bravery, "tomorrow" will not have any new news that is not part of the program. Therefore, they will not even think about what the news will be.